Test from Hell

Okay....so for the past few days I have been locked in the house studying my butt off for this Cardiac Exam. I was certain I knew what I was doing. I was looking at the powerpoints as much as possible. I brought my notecards to work and I even did some practice questions to test my knowledge. I was doing great...or so I thought. Last night I went with some 13th Gaters to go see the new Silent Hill in 3D....it was okay...but I loved the nurses. They will always have a special place in my heart.

When I got home I even did some more questions and looked at a few slides before falling asleep. I was  certain I had this. There was no way that she (one of our instructors) could make this test harder than I thought it would be. I was so wrong.

I looked at the questions on the first page and was like okay, this is a little challenging, but I can do it. But no. My world ended when I got to the second page. I was stumped. "WTF is this?" I was so confused. My mind was splitting into so many different sections of my brain, I just wanted to scream. I had no idea where the hell she would come up with some of this stuff. I thought it absolutely impossible to make a test this hard. It was just....no.

She called ten minutes when I was on like number 43 and I panicked. I skipped like 2 questions and I still had 2 calculation problems to do. 50 freakin questions and we had an hour for the most evil test in the world. Nothing....NOTHING has topped this test since I've been in college since 2005. ....NOTHING.

I finished (barely) and I was praying the whole time while taking this. I'm sure most of my answers are wrong, I want a drink and to also sleep for just two days without anyone bothering me.

And to top off this most horrendous of days in my life, we were expected to pay attention to the new content being taught after THAT! How IN the HELL am I supposed to even comprehend what she is talking about with GU (is she even speaking in English) after that massive brain F*&%!?...HOW??

..................anyway....I'm voting tomorrow.....yay?

I'm tired

Yes. It's 1:30 am and I'm still awake. Why am I still awake you ask....well I've been working at the 13th Gate and it's Hell Week so we've been open 7 nights straight. I have assignments due (nursing school says screw the rest of your life...I'm your life now!!), and I'm watching a rerun (i hope it's a rerun...I'm so out of touch with the world that I can't even tell what time it is in Florida) of Vice President Biden's rally.

My uniform for clinical in the morning....oh wait...o_O.....it IS morning....i meant later....is ironed, but I still look like a zombie....(no kidding...I still have my make up on). I didn't feel well today and I missed an exam (oh joy), and my boyfriend is passed out in the room. I'm tired but irritated. I want to study, but throw my laptop over the governor's mansion (and wish it would hit the top of Jindal's head). I want to finish these assignments, but write (F&^% you on them and then submit it with a picture of my butt in the air. I AM EXHAUSTED

This semester has drained me completely of all capacity to think logically and remain the nice person that I am. I'm very nice. ....ask anyone...but this is just soooooo infuriating. There are things I want to do, like play my Sims 3 or finish reading The Marketplace Series, but no...I start to feel guilty when I do these things and force myself to take quizzes and read powerpoint slides and make notecards of drugs I don't care to understand....but I have to. I want to be a nurse right?? Right???

I'm thinking of my future and the future of my children (when I have them)..........why is the vice president kissing a random baby.....anyway.....my moment of distraction there....



......yea what was I saying again???....

O..school...yea I sooo want to be a nurse.
Totally
...completely
........irrevocably (i don't know if this is spelled right)

(sigh) Who cares..